Allow me to re-introduce myself…
Hi! Welcome to my blog- I’m so glad you’re here! Let me take a moment to introduce myself …
I’m Bianca. I’m a wife and a mom of two beautiful girls (and two chihuahuas!). This isn’t my first crack at blogging… you see, I love to write. I’ve been writing and journaling since I was 7 years old. Sharing myself through the written word is something that has always been such an integral part of who I am. I used to blog when I ran my full-time fitness and nutrition coaching business. After being in the fitness industry for 6 years, I started New Leaf Fitness in 2013. Aside from the actual hands-on coaching aspect of the business, a huge part of it for me was blogging. I shared not only useful information pertaining to health and wellness, but also my inner (honest) musings on life, happiness, body image, and self improvement. The whole premise of my mission was to help people realize that they could always turn over a new leaf whenever they wanted or needed to. That it was never too late, and they were never too far gone to change. In my blog (and on my social media) I openly shared about all the new leaves I had already turned in my life … I shared about my time as a student and how I broke into the fitness industry, about my time as a professional dancer and NFL cheerleader, I shared intimate details about my battle with a severe eating disorder and what my recovery journey looked like, I documented my experience through contest prep and competing in body building competitions, about my life, about mental health, about marriage…
And then i got pregnant. I documented my journey through pregnancy. When my daughter was born, that’s when everything changed for me. I started to detach myself from everything toxic - toxic products, toxic people, toxic food, toxic lifestyles, and even the toxic fitness industry.
Motherhood gave me a whole new perspective on life. But it wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows. I continued to share my battle with postpartum anxiety and depression…. overcoming chronic illness …. I even shared about my whole journey to explanting once I realized that my implants were part of the root cause of my illness…
Along the way, I stopped sharing as much. My website was taken down, and so I lost my blog. I started to believe that I had nothing to offer people with my words anymore. I started to convince myself that maybe my voice didn’t matter. It felt like my life had moved in so many directions so quickly that I wasn’t even sure who I was anymore. I didn’t know which box to shove myself into, or how to appeal to the masses anymore.
But I’m done subscribing to all this. I am relaunching this blog so that I can continue to celebrate the truest expression of what and who I am. And, for me, it always starts with writing. Im excited to share with you a mosaic of all the many interests and pieces of myself that I’ve discovered along the way: motherhood, lifestyle, self help and self improvement, mental health, trauma work, fitness, nutrition, recipes, fashion, travel, my latest finds, etc. I refuse to pick a niche, because I am not defined by any one thing. I won’t and can’t be contained by something so limiting.
There are so many leaves that I’ve turned over in this life that I’ve long lost count. Like an onion, layer after layer, each one has been another step in the direction of my becoming, my unlearning, my finding my way home to myself …
I can’t promise who or what i will be tomorrow, but what I can promise is that I’ll continue to show up unapologetically and authentically as myself. Thank you for taking the ride with me …